Understanding Me, Myself and I

So my other half tells me I’ve been manic for about the last 2wks, trouble is that feels like normal pace of life to me. I’m completing my chart and am slowly starting to see the red flags that allow me to recognise when my emotions/reactions are maybe too extreme, which in turn allows me some control. It allows me to take a breath and reflect – am I really feeling what I feel? Is it reasonable or am I being overly dramatic. That really helped me this weekend. My other half told me something and my initial reaction was definitely led by ‘Animal’ I was ready to rage and cry and be furious, thankfully a combination of ‘Mayo’s reasoning and ‘Annie’s’ positivity allowed me to express how I felt, but in a much calmer way. This allowed me and my other half to half to have a discussion and the situation was resolved fairly quickly. I can acknowledge that previously there would have been a lot of shouting and negativity from me and the outcome would have taken much longer to achieve.

The issue I am still struggling with is separating what is manic? What my husband sees as manic and what my chart suggests is manic feels pretty normal to me 🤔

So am I in mania a lot rather than “an episode”? 🤔🤔

Seems I still have some way to go on my Cyclothymia journey.