Understanding Me, Myself and I

It’s been a minute, did you miss me 😉

So why haven’t I written a post for a while….

A mixture of reasons really – but mostly I have just had too much on my plate! I have family stuff with mum and dad, my son and recently discovering I’m a Nannie 🥰 money stuff, work stuff and all the other usual things that we deal with in day to day life. Oh yes and then there’s my sister in law…..

Thankfully for the most part Annie has been in charge. Her sheer will power has get me on a fairly even, if slightly Manic, keel through this very chaotic part of life. Panicky Pete has raised his head most days to a greater or lesser extent, but overall he has found his why to Annie, who has calmed him with her nerves of steel.

About a week ago Annie went missing for an evening, leaving Panicky Pete to find Animal – this led to a full blown panic attack and a huge amount of tears 😭 thankfully my kind and patient hubby calmed me down, and with the help of Mayo, he helped bring Annie back to the surface. For all the positives Annie brings I am starting to understand she is actually my Manic persona. After all who else can blindly feel positive about tomorrow “when your always a day away”

I’m very tired as am averaging 5hrs of sleep at the moment, normally around now Sloan would be taking the reins and giving me a good days rest, but Annie is resolutely remaining in charge – I think she knows I need her to get me through the next few weeks and I will let her do just that. As things calm down (and I’m hoping they do!) then I’m hoping Mayo will come to the fore. Mayo is optimistic, but realistic. Mayo listens to Panicky Pete, but with calm reasoning. Mayo acknowledges Animals child like feelings, without letting them explode. Mayo is not manic nor depressed. Mayo is my leveller and I hope to allow Mayo to be in charge more and more.