Understanding Me, Myself and I

So tonight I find myself pondering what my first complete week of charting shows me.

Towards the end of the week my scores seem to be levelling out, but here’s the thing: are the scores levelling because my mood is levelling or are they levelling because I’m naturally competitive so now I can see the target I am aiming for them, therefore I’m making myself stick to routine as much as possible, in turn this has a positive affect on my steadying my mood – so which comes first?!

Better mood – better routine OR better routine leading to better mood?

On a separate note I feel very lucky that I have an understanding and supportive doctor. Having spoken to her this week, she has agreed that if I put together a written description of how I’ve been feeling she will support a referral to the community mental health unit – this hopefully should allow me to access a mental health assessment to look at if I have Cyclothymia and if I have access coping mechanisms and if I haven’t then what is going on??? Either way it feels a positive step forward ☺️