Understanding Me, Myself and I

When I woke up this morning Sloan was definitely in charge! I didn’t want to get up, I had a little cry, I still felt frustrated about what happened yesterday. As I lay in bed debating my next choice and having thoughts repeatedly swirl round my head – like a demented hamster seeing how fast he can make the wheel go – I hear Mayo.

Mayo’s voice is calm but firm (like a parent with a child) giving me instruction but I a sympathetic way “just start by getting up” “pick a short WalkFit workout” “better to even just do half if that’s all you can manage that do none”

Thankfully it works – Mayo’s calm authority has got me out of bed, I have only done part of a routine (as I tried a new one and didn’t like it), but Mayo is right it was better than not doing anything.

I still feel….. maybe vulnerable is the best word to use (like I feel ok but don’t think it would take much for Sloan to make an appearance) but I also feel encouraged that I have found some control again. I felt able to speak to my husband about yesterday which is really important as he tries soo hard to support me – but he can’t do that unless he knows what’s going on!

Finally I now realise I have a 3rd persona (who I’m gonna call Animal) this is the one that is all feels and no thinking – driven purely on the emotion in the moment. Animal is the one who wants to cry, scream, rage and feel’s the unfairness of it all.

Whilst writing about yet another persona it triggered a thought…… I worked with a young person using the “Hominculi approach” I wonder if that would help me?