Understanding Me, Myself and I

So I can never tell how I’m going to feel on any given day, this is because sometimes I cycle (and I don’t mean on a bike!) within the day (believe it or not!) When I woke up today I felt Meh, not awful, but not great. I made myself get up and do walkout workout number 46 (and counting) As the day wore on though I moved into a positive place – I work with children and today we were playing ‘sticky weed’ tag. I challenge anyone to run around with a bunch of 5 and 6yr olds trying to attack you with sticky weed and stay miserable! Their joy at me joining in with their game was catching and by the end of lunchtime I had laughed so much my tummy hurt (and I was covered in sticky weed hahaha!).

What I am learning about cyclothymia though is when I feel positive like this I have to be just as disciplined as when I feel down. Today, right now as I write this, I don’t feel like I have a mental health issue – I feel I could take on the world! I have to remember I still need to do my sleep routine, my morning workout, my sensible eating and all that jazz.

I have a talking therapy phone call booked for later this week and right now I feel as if I don’t need it……… but I do. I want to learn to manage my illness not live a life where the illness manages me.

My aim is to try and post daily. I think it will help me think about my mood and where I’m at. This blog is the next habit I am trying to form….. well this and eating better! To that end I have downloaded the NHS weight loss app (know nothing about it yet) but apparently it is a 12 week plan to help you lose weight. One of my jobs tonight is to open the app up and see what it’s all about!